I am so frustrated with this "flesh women"-that inner self that seems to control more than I want in my life. Why does she seem to have so much control? After a beautiful Bible study this morning and writing in my prayer journal that I would radiate God's character, I arose thinking I had the Holy Spirits power in my day to only be over come by this "flesh women". Immediately following this spiritual renewing time, while trying to get my younger girls off to school, in their midst of whimpers and fighting, I exploded on them. The sweet spirit from my time with God ("Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight." 1 Peter 3:4, NIV) was over powered by my flesh and immediately I failed my girls, I failed my Lord, I failed myself. Paul wrote:
"You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness."
~Ephesian 4:22-24 (NIV)
I choose to live in the Spirit, not in the flesh. I confessed this failure to God, I will confess it to my girls this evening but this is one mom who is tired of this flesh side of me and would really like to put it to death! I spend time in God's word, I am memorizing scripture (which does not come easy anymore) and I pray without ceasing...what else must I do?
If you have worn these shoes I would so appreciate your insight in this matter...anyone?
Thank God I live In His Grace~Pamela
6 comments:
Hello Pamela!
I'll be back tonight to read your post~I'm trying to do end of the year junk. :(
Stop by my blog, I have something for you at the bottom of the "Nothing but the truth" post.
Love ya!
Lelia
Hi, thanks for the post on my blog!
I am reading this book too, I love it, did the first one last year and our neighborhood Bible Study is now doing the second.
I struggle daily with Flesh Woman.
Thanks for the post.
Hi Pamela,
Thanks for your prayers for grandma. She's a kind sweet lady who needs an uplifting note.
Anyway, this flesh woman. All I have to say is, it is every woman's struggle. I did the same this morning. Sometimes I remember to remind myself not to take the enemy's bait. Sometimes I don't.
Luke 10:19.
Shoua
Thanks for stopping by my place!
I totally understand where you are coming from! I battle with my "flesh woman" daily! My poor girls!!! I want to wake up tommorrow morning and just be the sweetest, calmest, most spiritual mommy possible, but God keeps reminding me it is little by little. I'm not going to conquer my flesh in one day.
Don't give up! You are not alone! And God promises that we will one day reap if we continue in doing good, the good He is calling us to do. (Galatians 6:9)
Praying for you!
Your Fellow Fleshly Woman Wanting to be so Much More,
Kimberly :)
Pamela,
Thanks for the blog comment! It is wonderful to share how God takes things that hurt and turn them into wonderful testimonies of His love and grace!
So, reading through your post today, I know flesh woman, I am her sister! We are in this together, but we have a God who is stronger than she is! Hooray!
I look forward to getting to know you as I read through your blog.
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