Wednesday, May 21, 2008

When?

I have the following questions...


When did life become so busy?
When did 'happily ever after' hit a snag?
When did kids become so difficult?
When did mothering become so tough?
When did being a wife become such work?
When did chaos enter what God created to be so pure and perfect?

I am not challenging where God has me in my life but satan is....all I can do to fight back is remind him that my heart wants to say YES to God, not to him. As I have looked at the negatives in my life over these recent days, I am feeling pain, disappointment, frustrations. To avoid my pillow tonight, I took the opportunity to blog-hop. My new friend Tori (http://joshandtori.blogspot.com/) has nailed it for me tonight.... "i remembered that i made a promise not to get to this point. i remembered that i vowed not to let the weights of what (i think) must get done interfere with the truth of what is most important".

When the minutes fade away....I want to have memories.....
What I thought my kids should become...I can't interfere with God's plan....
When my husband doesn't react like I want him too...I am to love Him even more...
When the happily ever after isn't so happy...there is still joy...
When I feel like resigning as a wife and mother....God calls me to be His servant in this...
In the chaos of life...in the storms...there is God...I say YES to Him and not to satan.

Friends, tonight my heart is heavy...there are some tough situations that will be "pudding" by next week but I cherish your prayers.

In His Graces~Pamela

10 comments:

Tori Shelton said...

it's funny i just noticed, we're in the same states: state of mind, and state, literally (missouri).

know that your new friend is praying for you... believing that you'll find that balance, and that when you do, you'll reap the reward of fulfillment.

be blessed.

Yolanda said...

Pamela, even though my circumstances are completely different than yours...I have found myself in a "frump" for a few days. It's time for this gal and her friend to start BRAGGING ON GOD and shoot daggers into satan's plans!

I love you and He loves you even more!!!!!

Yolanda

Kelley said...

I'm praying for you Pamela. I am thinking we are a bit like Jonah and our Nineveh is our families, our jobs, our lives.....We can either jump overboard and be swallowed up or be faithful to go where God is sending us, even if it is a hard task at times. Man, there are times I just want to jump ship though!

Take care and enjoy the holiday!

Love,
Kelley

Paula (SweetPea) said...

My heart goes out to you. This life is a spiritual warfare particularly for Christians. The more we live for Christ and choose to obey Him the more Satan comes and attacks our mind to try to defeat it. I'm sure you know all the scriptures on Satan. Resist him and stand firm in your faith (1 Peter 5:9). Also, resist the devil and he will flee from you (James 4:7)
Love to you, my dear sister,
Paula

Paula (SweetPea) said...

Oh, Kelley mentioned Jonah...if you haven't, maybe you can read my post on Jonah and find some encouragement. It's called "It's Not Just a Kid's Story"

Laura said...

Lovely, Pamela! And so true. We get so caught up in this world, in life, sometimes. The death of Maria Chapman has stopped my heart this day. We take too much for granted. But we must trust that our father's ways are best...not always easy. When we don't understand, let us pray that our faith is increased.
Blessings,
laura

Lelia Chealey said...

Will be lifting you up my dear friend. Life is so tough & sometimes I just cry out to God "WHY does it have to be so hard?"
Make it through whatever you're going through with Him leading you every step.
Love ya,
Lelia

Lelia Chealey said...

His Grace IS enough for you Pam! Your blog name says it all sweet friend.

Owlhaven said...

Great message. I grew up near St. Louis....

Here from Rocks in my Dryer

Mary, mom to many

Shelia said...

I wanted to say a big hello, I love your blog. (I am very new to blogs!)
I am also a nurse living in Missouri. I have three sons, two teens and one who is 21. I worked with our Youth for years and had the time of my life!!
I am not sure where in MO you live but I consider us "neighbors". And gosh, in MO we may even be related!!
Many blessings to you,
Shelia