Having A Bad Day

I'm having a bad day. I should have known better when I journaled "Lord, make me a loving considerate, and compassionate wife and mother". I lost it with my 9-year old when she started crying over her clothes this morning. Grief. She is the kind of kid that couldn't wear socks with a seam when she was younger and now she only will wear sweats or shorts because "jeans bother her legs"? WHAT? What girl does not like a pair of good fitting jeans? Old Navy has been good to us over the years but when she enters middle school I fear for her fashion sense. And God forbid if we buy her a shirt with long sleeves-"too tight on my arms". She is this dainty little thing...nothing is too tight! But I love her. I failed her again this morning (I prayed for God's forgiveness already).

Then I went to pick up my Beth Moore Esther order at the Lifeway store on a local college campus. They were at chapel so I had to wait. Made some errands to buy valentine gifts....found nothing.

Went to a local hospital to show a new clinical instructor around and the educator seemed to attack anything I would say. She is new there and to us. I finally just clammed up. I asked the new clinical instructor if I had said something wrong and he was clueless as to what I could have said to get the reactions we did from this person. So I pray for her. Who knows what is gong on in her life.

Then to end it all...Go to my daughters last game of the season that she is cheering at to find out her coach BENCHED HER!! She and another cheerleader went to sonic after practice and before the game. They got back 10 minutes late (Emma says she misunderstood the time they were to be back). The coach wouldn't let them (or the other girls they bought for) eat their food and told them to practice some more before the game. Not only did she have to sit out for the first half but she and her friend was not allowed to cheer on the floor between the third and forth quarter. My daughter is the one that does the cartwheels and is thrown up in the pyramid. NOPE. BENCHED. Just a bit dramatic (and the coach is related to my daughters dad-where is the family support???). Grief. Suppose I need to pray for her too but I don't want to.

I feel like a gremlin is inside waiting to explode out (and not the cute kind). WHY? I don't like feeling this way. God has been so good. I have been memorizing my scripture. I have been trying to live honorably and just. Then today I have been hit with nothing but negativity. And now I have a headache!

So I pray. There is somehow peace when I pray... is that so like our Lord?

A co-worker stated there is some things she just doesn't pray for herself because of how she gets hit with it later (like my prayer for myself this morning-instant failure). She said she instead will ask her friends to pray those things for her. Will you friend? Pray I will be loving, considerate, and compassionate wife and mother. Pray this negativity will not win out and steal the joy God has been giving me.

May my prayer be set before you like incense; may the lifting up of my hands be like the evening sacrifice. ~ Psalm 141:2

Yes...our prayers for those who cause us grief and our prayer for those we love are an incense to our Lord. It pleases Him.

So I continue to pray. What else am I to do?

His Maidservant~Pamela