I felt God direct me to prepare myself mentally and spiritually for this conference and what He had planned for me to take from it. If you have read my previous blogs, I "mind fasted" in an attempted to empty my "self" to allow for more of God to enter. What a blessed disciplined act this ended up being. As I ventured through this door God placed before me, I was ready because I was focused on hearing Him and see Him...
I know your deeds. See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know that you have little strength, yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name.~Rev. 3:8
As I sat on the plane ready for take-off, I was overwhelmed with a wonderful sense of peace and calm. God's peace. I would have thought I would be excited but the calm was so strong. I closed my eyes and prayed, leaving my "self", my past sins that weighed me down, the emotions of regret and remorse, the attitudes of unforgiveness and resentment-all left there on that runway. I wasn't allowing it to follow me to this conference. God made it clear through His handiwork and blessings over the last few months that He wanted me there and He had a purpose for me there. I was determined to meet Him there and to find out His plan.
I was captured from the opening message-it was just for me. It was about the Samaritan women being called to lead others to Christ. All the other sessions either confirmed what I had been doing or gave me a clearer message of what I needed to work on in my life. My spiritual cup was over flowing. I saw God. I heard God. I am humbled and I have been again blessed. Saturday night I was given the opportunity to lay down the garbage that has been keeping me from serving God as He desired from me. Though I had left the garbage behind, I knelled at that cross confirming to God my commitment to let it go and to press forward focused only on Him. Though my eyes were wet with from the sacredness of the moment, my heart was overjoyed, excited! I was handed a scripture card from one of the P31 ministry leaders and it spoke exactly how I felt-SECURED. Where has this verse been all my life? It is so beautiful....
"Let the beloved of the LORD rest secure in him, for He shields him all day long, and the one the LORD loves rests between his shoulders." ~Deuteronomy 33:12
As I sat on the plane leaving North Carolina, this renewed 'MrsJoeB' felt a surge of resilience. As the plane engines reeved up and our speed quickly increased for the take off, I again lifted my heart up in prayer. With tears in my eyes and knowing satan is waiting and set to attack, I felt like screaming out "CHARGE!"...and I did in my heart. I am a women who passionately loves my Lord and His Word and I am better equipped with more of Him and less of me to walk in this journey of faith and ministry!! I will share more of the highlights in the coming days as I want to explore them more to scripture and to God's word.
Lord, I have seen you and I have have heard you. Most importantly, I am choosing to follow hard after you. Only because of You and only in You can I charge forward! May I be a testimony of your amazing grace and power. Amen.