Life is full of so much. Some days are beautiful and you live in them as a blessing and other days are just plain chaos. A goal of mine has been to walk through each day with God right beside me, in all things. I started to think on this more as I am not living so well within this goal. Not to sound like a broken record but I go back to these two verses that I came across recently and seem to be clinging to these days...
He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. ~Psalm 91:1
For my determined purpose is that I may know Him that I may progressively become more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him, perceiving and recognizing and understanding the wonders of His Person more strongly and more clearly, and that I may in that same way come to know the power outflowing from His resurrection which it exerts over believers, and that I may so share His sufferings as to be continually transformed in spirit into His likeness even to His death, in the hope that if possible I may attain to the spiritual and moral resurrection that lifts me out from among the dead even while in the body.~Philippians 3:10-11, Amplified
And I—in righteousness I will see your face; when I awake, I will be satisfied with seeing your likeness. ~Psalm 17:15
I have always envision God being beside me constantly...like a shadow. The thought came to me this morning as to why I am not fully able to awaken each morning and see God in everything or see God in me-my actions, my thoughts, my heart. He is with me-I know that, like a shadow. His shadow is constant, even on those rainy chaotic days but there is a placement problem. Let me clarify this.
You know how your own shadow will change directions based on the location of the suns reflective rays? The same is true of God. It is not that God chooses to be moved around me like a shadow in the reflective light of my heart, but it is my hearts reflection, my hearts devotion and comittment to Him that sends out the spiritual light to reflect His presence around me. Sometimes He is behind me, sometimes He is besides me, sometimes He is in front of me.
If I am to truly be satisfied, to be able to live seeing God in everything and reflecting Him back out through my life, there is only one place He should be...in front of me, leading me. I am to walk in His shadow, not He in mine. Yes, there will be days in which the chaos and frustration will dim His shadow, there will be days that He will need to carry me, but if I allow my spiritual light to shine, there will always be a glimpse of Him. In the shadow of His cross I will find comfort, He will console my heart and soul and He will lead me in His way.
So I must ask daily if I am in the shadow of His goodness? I challenge you at ask yourself this same question.