I do wish for a friendship as Lisa described with Colleen. I had that once. I miss her. I can not not claim a close female friend at the moment-it made me pray for such a friendship to come back to life and for God to send someone like Colleen to me. I could sure use her in my life again.
I think what stuck out the most to me in reading these two chapters was related to Chapter 6 Cosmetics for the Soul and the subject of satisfaction. It has been a topic so very near and dear to me as I have journeyed through this spiritual transformation. You know what I'm talking about, don't you...the changing of your wants, your desires, and what you truly find satisfaction in. When I read verses like Psalms 17:15 it's like eating a dove chocolate...soothing!
And I—in righteousness I will see your face; when I awake, I will be satisfied with seeing your likeness.It fills me with motivation and gives me hope. A hope that I too can awaken each morning and see God in everything and see His likeness in me.
"In order to find full and lasting satisfaction, we have to look to the heavenly things, not the temporal things of this world. Or ultimate goal has to be to seek Him and His righteousness above all else."
Am I satisfied with my life? Parts of it. All I want though is more of Him, more of God, more time in ministry. I am thirsty for the spiritual and that is such a good thing. What do I conceal? My insecurities of who I can be in Christ, my fear of rejection...it still is so fresh. But as Lisa wrote in at the end of Chapter 7 The Feelings We Conceal:
"Whether we are feeling insecure, jealous, lonely, or afraid, our precious Father desires to hold us and tell us we are worthy, important, gifted, never alone, and never to fear"
He is all I need. He satisfies me above all else.
For my determined purpose is that I may know Him that I may progressively become more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him, perceiving and recognizing and understanding the wonders of His Person more strongly and more clearly, and that I may in that same way come to know the power outflowing from His resurrection which it exerts over believers, and that I may so share His sufferings as to be continually transformed in spirit into His likeness even to His death, in the hope that if possible I may attain to the spiritual and moral resurrection that lifts me out from among the dead even while in the body.~Philippians 3:10-11, Amplified