Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Behind Those Eyes Blog Bible Study

I got up really early this morning so I could get these chapters read. It's midterm week at the college and ministry has been busy so I was afraid I was going to miss posting altogether. But I made it and here are my reflective thoughts on another tough topic ('s) we have explored in Lelia's blog bible Study of Lisa Whittles book "Behind Those Eyes!

I do wish for a friendship as Lisa described with Colleen. I had that once. I miss her. I can not not claim a close female friend at the moment-it made me pray for such a friendship to come back to life and for God to send someone like Colleen to me. I could sure use her in my life again.

I think what stuck out the most to me in reading these two chapters was related to Chapter 6 Cosmetics for the Soul and the subject of satisfaction. It has been a topic so very near and dear to me as I have journeyed through this spiritual transformation. You know what I'm talking about, don't you...the changing of your wants, your desires, and what you truly find satisfaction in. When I read verses like Psalms 17:15 it's like eating a dove chocolate...soothing!
And I—in righteousness I will see your face; when I awake, I will be satisfied with seeing your likeness.
It fills me with motivation and gives me hope. A hope that I too can awaken each morning and see God in everything and see His likeness in me.

"In order to find full and lasting satisfaction, we have to look to the heavenly things, not the temporal things of this world. Or ultimate goal has to be to seek Him and His righteousness above all else."

Am I satisfied with my life? Parts of it. All I want though is more of Him, more of God, more time in ministry. I am thirsty for the spiritual and that is such a good thing. What do I conceal? My insecurities of who I can be in Christ, my fear of rejection...it still is so fresh. But as Lisa wrote in at the end of Chapter 7 The Feelings We Conceal:

"Whether we are feeling insecure, jealous, lonely, or afraid, our precious Father desires to hold us and tell us we are worthy, important, gifted, never alone, and never to fear"

He is all I need. He satisfies me above all else.

In Him~Pamela





For my determined purpose is that I may know Him that I may progressively become more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him, perceiving and recognizing and understanding the wonders of His Person more strongly and more clearly, and that I may in that same way come to know the power outflowing from His resurrection which it exerts over believers, and that I may so share His sufferings as to be continually transformed in spirit into His likeness even to His death, in the hope that if possible I may attain to the spiritual and moral resurrection that lifts me out from among the dead even while in the body.~Philippians 3:10-11, Amplified

12 comments:

Paula (SweetPea) said...

Sweet Pamela, oh how you spoke to my heart. I like you so much want a friend like Colleen. I didn't mention that desire in my post because I know that some of my local friends read or have access to my blog. Although, it's probably obvious our friendships are not that way, I didn't want to in any way hurt someone's feeling IF they thought we were better friends than we are.

I felt a kindred spirit with you to hear of your desire to have such a friendship but not currently have one. I thought I had this once but she's proven otherwise since my beloved left. She was my rock, I mean rock for about five months and in the last 11 she's been a ghost...not even emails. I guess she couldn't take my pain. I don't know. God does though.
Sweet blessings,
Paula

Liz said...

Oh Pamela,I too,wish for that type of friendship. I also had it once for 13 years our friendship was close and I thought we would make it through anything. But, no...sin did interfere and we let Satan win, at least for now. I have asked for reconciliation and pray for it every day. Jesus knows the reason behind this pain, and I long to let Him fill my every desire and the hole that she left in my heart.
I do not want to let the fear of rejection (also what I conceal) to not trust God to answer my prayer in this area of my life.
Sweet blessings and I am praying for your busy week.
Liz

Kim@Seasons of My Heart said...

Pamela~ I think...ok...I KNOW that a lot of woman..including myself...LONG...for a friend like Colleen......

I know that in my life.....and in my situation.....God is teaching me that he is all I need!!

Of course, that's easy to say, but at times...hard....as I LONG for a friend..in person..who really get's me.

I now have a friend.....that God is beginning to build a strong relationship between us...YET....at times....I keep her at arms length.....wanting to MAKE SURE...it's safe.

Jill said...

Yes, He gives us satisfaction. Really he is all we need. If I'd only keep that thught in the front of my mind at all times life would be so much better. Thanks for the reminder, Jill

Cindy said...

"What do I conceal? My insecurities of who I can be in Christ."

Fear keeps me from being all I can be in Christ!

We all desire friendships like the one talked about in Lisa's book ~ but God is our best friend.

Laura said...

Pamela,
Reading all of these comments, I am struck by how lonely so many of us are for intimacy. And by how many have been hurt by someone we trusted. Letting Him be my satisfaction is difficult, I totally relate to your thoughts there.
Thanks for encouraging me to LET HIM be all that, and more.

elaine @ peace for the journey said...

With you on the journey, friend. Wish we lived closer. The closer we get to God, the hungrier we are. Living with God creates such a need. I thank Him for awakening it in my soul. To think of all the time I lived in my ignorance!

Have a great weekend.

peace~elaine

Carol said...

Pamela,

Thank you for these words, and your honesty about wanting a friend like Colleen, I had that once too and it's been so long since that time. I've been praying that too.

I love your focus on being transformed in the things your heart desires. I truly was uplifted by your post.

In Him
Carol

swallowingamoose said...

Hi Girlies!

Consider this your official invitation from Heather! I am looking for as many bloggers as I can find that would like to participate in a bloggy "Giving Thanks on Thanksgiving." I dreamed this idea up as a way to give thanks to the Lord for His work in each of our lives by sharing our testimonies with the world wide web on Monday, November 24, 2008. That's the Monday before Thanksgiving guys! Many of you may choose to leave that post up for the entire week and I encourage that. My prayer is that this sharing of our testimonies will not only encourage each other and give Glory to our Lord but also to those who happen upon our blogs.

The instructions will be posted up on the dedicated blog (located at www.themouthbehindthemoose.blogspot.com That reads “The Mouth Behind The Moose” dot blogspot dot com) until the day of the event so you can find them there as you prepare.

I'm excited to embark on this journey of Giving Thanks! I hope you all are too. If you want let the word out on your blog please by all means i'd appreciate any help I can get. Direct back to my place if you want. I need all the help I can get with putting the scoop out there in the blog lines that WE, THE CHILDREN OF ONE AWESOME GOD, ARE ABOUT TO TESTIFY! Whoo-hooo! If your interested in taking part sign up in my comments and i'll remind you as we get closer to that time! Hopefully, this early notice will help us generate more to join and give us ample time to seek the Lord in prayer as to what and how He'd like us to share our stories.

Hope to see your testimonies there!

Happy Writings,

Heather Twitchell

Swallowing A Moose

Pat said...

Pamela, isn't it true that special friendships are hard to come by and hard to keep.
Sad isn't it. We know it is not Gods' plan. We should all love so well that we have more "Coleens" than we know what to do with.
I pray that God sends you yours,
Pat

Mari said...

**He is all I need. He satisfies me above all else.**


Pamela: I do so love what you write. It is so very true.

Special friendships are hard to come by but I know that God will supply that if we ask.

Praying for you!

Leebird said...

Your thoughts encourage me to hunger and thirst for more and more of Jesus.

My Colleen is named Michelle. I pray God will bless you with a friend beyond your wildest dreams!